Digging Deep; Being True to Myself and not owning the journeys of others. 3 min read.

Here Rachael talks about the current shift, about her capability as a channel for Spirit, and hoping you find inspiration from her words.

Part of what I have been going through in recent weeks is a return to self. A return to self which has been initiated by a change which we are all going through. So I hope you find words of comfort which reflect where you are now.

This return to self has prompted me to be more authentic and honest. I always say to people you will always get me. Always. I struggle to lie or hide truths, but will always try to be kind with my words. And I expect others to be true to their words too.

This sometimes rubs people up the wrong way. Don’t get me wrong; I do not believe that honesty with aggression and an intent to injure, is the same as honesty from a place of love and wisdom. Even people who say that outwardly nothing can hurt them (normally the ones who can hurt with their truths, even if it’s unintentional), say they are tough, say what they think etc etc. We all know that those which shout the loudest often do so in an attempt to distract us from what the lack of self belief, self love and self confidence they have. And this saddens me deeply, especially when it means it gets in the way of honest interactions with others.

Really showing myself to others.

As part of this return to self, I have decided to step back into something I was really passionate about a few years ago. My self belief and self purpose was high, and I was channelling high end information, which I believed was helping the planet. And I still believe it was and the Universe has a wonderful way of pointing us in the right direction, when we have our head up our backsides. Which it now has done, and I have listened, I hope you’ll be pleased to hear.

At this time I was working with a group and did everything I could to please them. Everything. With a business, two small children, one a baby, I was criticised if I didn’t channel enough information for the group that week. Or if I didn’t read something someone else recommended I did (the fact is that for me being a pure channel meant that I needed to focus on what I was channelling, not spending hours reading the work of someone else. Which is still true – if I need to know something I personally will be drawn to read it or I will meet the person or someone who has read their work and I will get to know what I need to know. The Universe guides us all as we need in the same vein). Or if I did what I was asked to do and to call someone out on their behaviour. I used to do it gladly, and with joy, as I felt it was of service, that I was doing something genuinely worthwhile. And because I liked this group and felt they were my friends. And some of that group certainly were, and still are.

I never wanted to step into a role of leadership; despite being asked to. I wanted the group to be a bunch of individuals getting together. Seeing eachother as the Masters and the Students that we all are. And I still hold true to this philosophy. It is our need to pass over responsibility for our path which calls on us to mark people as leaders and followers, which also allows some leaders to pitch themselves against who they see as other leaders. Causing competition. An issue which has reared it’s head around me, again recently. But this is a point I will draw on in my next blog.

But when I began to say when I felt certain people within that group were wrong for calling other people negative, or trying to as gently as possible show them the information they were channelling, via effectively a home made Ouija board, couldn’t possibly be accurate and try to point them in a better direction for channelling information as possible, or disagreed in belief that certain people were negative. And as such I was then told I was negative, one person speaking for the group, and that they did not want to meet anymore. Again this person’s Ego standing in the way of listening to the loving honesty I had to give. I later found out the group was still meeting, but the person who spoke for the group was running it. I hope they found what they wanted from that group. I hope they found the self confidence and self belief they needed, reflected in what they saw in me, and that in taking my place within the group, they found that.

At the time I took the whole episode to mean that everything I got through was from a place of Ego and I put it to one side. I was honestly heart broken. I was also told by someone I respected at about the same time, that I gave out too complicated information, that I needed to adjust what I had and to dumb it down. I was already used to dumbing myself down in life generally. Being told the words I used were too long and made people feel stupid, that men would not be interested in me as I came across as snobby with my nose in the air, the one area in my life where I had not felt restricted was my spiritual work. And so I dumbed that down too.

We are each free to be ourselves

Well you know what? That was a load of crap!

I give what I get; and people will be drawn to me as a result.

If that means that I work with people who’s Ego will allow them to hear the wisdom they have asked for, then that is perfect with me.

If it means that I work with other masters who also view themselves as students, all equal, all there to learn what we need to from eachother, then I am pleased as punch that is the case.

If this means that I teach teachers, wonderful. Perfect! There need to be more teachers out there. And if this means that I give help. advice, ideas to others trying to spread the message of Spirit and the Love of the Universe, then fan dabby dozey! (if you know that phrase that’ll show your age lol).

What I intend to do in my next blog is to put out an open letter, calling us all to stand together within the Spiritual community, not apart.

I will be honest, but that honesty is always said as kindly as I can in that moment, and it will always be said with your best interests at heart. And if that means that I feel that you could do something a different way, then I will say it.

It is not a criticism. It is not a slight against you. It is the way I was built to function.

I am a channel for Spirit. I am a straw for the Universe at large. And I always have been.

You don’t have to take what I give you. You are welcome to disagree with me. If you do, please have the love and compassion to do so directly to me. There maybe something I need to hear. There maybe something we both need to understand more. Please don’t rob either of us of the beautiful opportunity for open communication.

And you know what? We don’t have to agree!! The beauty of the Universe is that your reality and my reality all exist at the same time, and they don’t impact on eachother negatively. Unless you are still holding onto the misguided belief system that there is right or wrong. And this is non truer than in Modern Spirituality. All of our belief systems are right and true for us, until we come to change our mind again of course! and that change comes from learning and the expansion of self that learning facilitates.

As we expand, it means that as we grow, we can grow to such an extent that is easy to see from other people’s perspective; our love and understanding encompasses and cushions their view point. Nurturing eachothers opinions and beliefs. Holding them as Sacred.

And if you find my opinion so disgusting and so disturbing that it angers you, then trot on, with love. I don’t own your journey. You own your journey. This is the Age of Responsibility after all!

If you react in anger, then we don’t exist in the same reality. I am part of the New Reality; the New Way.

Our paths should not exist anywhere near eachother. So please move on. Don’t harbour ill will against me as I won’t be harbouring it for you. I will just be sending up happy thoughts that if our paths cross again, it will be under a different reality.

I can finally say I am being true to myself again. That I really don’t care, with love, what others think. I am channelling in my new group, the Spiritually Wide Awake Club. If you would like to join on Facebook I would love to have you there. I will continue to provide a platform where I am guided by others as part of my blog and as part of my Friday Night Live Facebook events on the 2nd Fri of every month which are live on my main page.

For me getting that balance is vitally important; I would love to be a part of your journey no matter where you are on it.

Love as always

Rachael x