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Healing the Goddess within and without; my personal journey with the Goddess and Top 11 Aspects of the Divine Feminine to Start with
Truly healing the feminine injury and letting go, in order to embrace the Love fully.How the aspects of the Divine Feminine in all her glory can heal and reveal just who you are
How did I get here? to this point in my story? How did I get anywhere? I started at the beginning and so shall I here.
The Goddess.
I remember my Mum talking about the Goddesses lost. Being a good Irish woman, and therefore truly a terrible Catholic, she questioned much. And she read and passed on a book many years ago about the women, the Goddesses, who were not included in the scriptures as we read them today, and not recorded in the modern history of the Ancients, as they should have been.
This is not a place to go on about male dominance and imbalance, but you get the picture. Otherwise you wouldn’t be reading this.
The information had not been passed to her, by her mother (although I expect the questioning and not accepting things lying down, that ability to remember hurts in order to work with them later in whatever capacity, probably passed down through her lineage; certainly via her Banshee of a Grandmother, maybe not her soft mother). But it had been passed onto her by another woman, a friend (I’m sure from church) who had told her about the book. And the book of course written by a woman. And this is the way that it has always been; the truths and the hidden things being passed down on the female line.
I have been healing that feminine hurt my whole life now; I realise that.
Stubborn ways; I’m not changing my name just because I’m married! I’ll work in a male industry, and despite my looks, I’ll kick all your backsides at your work and drink you under the table. I’ll love and care for children and the needy, but I expect others to meet me halfway. And I’ll provide and parent a child, not full of fluff and indulgence, but through love, laughter and loving honesty. And God-forbid I should sit with mum’s and coo over the kids as they steal dirty toys from eachother at playgroup.
So my femininity has been a struggle for me. I get on with generally all people I meet (the odd person I don’t is down to them, I realise now, seeing me through the eyes of their own Ego).
Illness as a result of that (endometriosis) and it has left me at odds with society. Which is a struggle because my viewpoint seems so logical to me. But I am well aware that each of our experiences (in this and previous lives) makes us who we are today. And so I am on a different stage of my journey to them. And that’s all good and exactly as it should be.
But the key to this has been finding other like minded women. All of us embracing the aspects of femininity; motherhood, nurturing and magic! But all in very different ways to the majority of women.
All embracing the feminine Goddess fire within their bellies, whether they realise that or not.
And in doing so igniting a very deep healing with me. Which has left me in a place of true balance. Please look at another blog for more information on part of this journey; a place where I recognised my anger and the source of that anger being my guilt. And how I healed that by truly embracing myself. You may also find this blog helpful as it’s about my healing journey.
And in finding these other women, these other gems, over my life, I have been able to find myself. Talk about your soul group coming together? It certainly feels that way for me over the last few years.
All these woman have held that femininity in balance. Not to the exclusion of men, not rejecting men as many women’s groups do. And that is no criticism of these groups. But maybe kind of the point of what I am writing.
If we don’t educate men, really educate men, then how can we move forward? How can we re-balance the world?
The male approach is action; outward reaction to a situation or threat. Sometimes leading to violence and often aggression. We all agree that this is not the way to take the world. That this is the old way which has not been working and destroying the planet and it’s inhabitants in varying degrees.
The feminine approach is inward; it’s reflection and understanding. It is understanding our experiences, before acting which gives us the direction we need.
So in order to balance those two we must have both; reflection and understanding leading to balanced action. But all essentially all from a place of Love.
I have been reading recently about Aristotle’s theories on the emotional impact on illness. for him, the opposite of anger was mildness. Mildness. So approaching a situation with love, compassion and understanding would negate anger. And I quite agree with him.
I realised recently when chatting to someone online (as we do nowadays) who was going through a similar process to me that in order to move forward with this balance, we must take away the male action from the feminine. We must take away the anger, and approach it from a different space.
That space is not a wishy washy acceptance and flowery covering up. It is a place of compassion and sympathy, but a place of action.
Notice I say compassion and not Empathy. It is ok to feel Empathy, to enable us to feel another’s emotions in order to gain perspective, to gain understanding and experience. But we cannot feel them. We cannot hold on to them. If we do that we act from a place of total emotion. Acting from a place of total emotion is a totally feminine attribute. And again we do not have the balance that we seek to achieve. This has taken me 38 years to learn.
The Goddess energy, the Feminine within all of us, is currently being blocked, being disabled by the lifetimes and generations of injury and insult against the feminine. Insults and injury which has left the feminine certainly jaded, and sometimes angry.
This is the essential bit; the whole point.
If we heal the anger within us, we can unblock ourselves. We each hold the Feminine God Head within us. In letting go of the anger, from many lifetimes, we can infact allow the feminine energy to be healed of her anger, and in doing so allow her energy to flow. Allow her to totally step into her power.
Allow her to step into her reflection and compassion.
Allow her to embrace her masculine counterpart fully.
Personally I found my relationship with my husband much better since actively going through this process. I have embraced him and trusted him more. Surely a man is here to hurt and injure and rape and pillage etc etc? My soul has healed itself from that.
I am now able to embrace my feminie power fully. To step into my own power. My own magic.
If each and everyone of us was able to heal the feminine within us, to let go of the anger that is currently blocking us, to accept the male counterpart within and outside of us (I am not talking about genders here, I feel that it is an important point to make), to fully step into our power; we will heal the Goddess.
In healing the Goddess we will heal the world.
Reflection and compassion, followed by action made from a space of love.
That is what we need. So I ask you? What are you going to do to heal yourself? To heal the Goddess within and outside?
Love as always
Rachael x
N.B.
I wanted to keep this as a side note separate to the main blog.
But I wanted to give you an idea of the Goddess energies I have been working with. Please note, that I feel the Christian outlook of Angels is what many other, multi-God religions, would class as their Gods and Goddesses, just from a different cultural aspect. And of course for any Higher Being looking to help people would change their appearance in order for them to be accepted by the local population (or it maybe they are viewed differently by the local population, the semantics are of no real consequence but I know many like to understand the energetic pathways behind how we work).
Mother Mary and Mary Magdelene – Ok, maybe many don’t think of these women as deities or Goddesses. But both revered and idolised in their own ways. And I very much have to thank my Catholic upbringing for bringing me to these women. Both misunderstood in their own ways. If you think a woman who brought her son up to be one of the greatest healers and philosophers the world has ever seen, who ran from the Egyptians and the Romans based on her faith in her own visions, who taught a son the scriptures so he could sit musing them with aged, learned men on the steps of the temple as a young teenager, who watched her son be brutally executed and still continued that work, if you think she was a pushover, you have another thing coming. And Mary Magdelene. Much maligned. She was the one who first allowed me to question the story of Jesus as I have been taught it. And in doing so brought me much further on my own personal healing path and closer to him than ever. One allowing me to master my motherhood with love and strength, the other enabling me to heal my feminine injuries.
My first ‘Goddess’ was Sekhmet who I know now, I worked with in at least one lifetime as High Priest in the Early Egyptian dynasties. She seeks out Egyptian Karma, called Ma’at, among other actions. I have always loved feline energies and my main power animal or animal guide is a cat (of varying forms). She has worked with me for over 10 years and in many ways facilitated my journey, whether I knew it or not. For me she is also known as the Archangel Ariel (please look at some of Dorian Virtues work) and the Goddess Kali – they have the same birth story.
Hecate – the Ancient Celt and Britain Triple Goddess. Maid, Mother, Crone. Modernity, Creativity, Wisdom. The un-embraced feminine aspect of the Father, Son and Holy Ghost. She allowed me to embrace all aspects of me; the parts I really didn’t like and the parts I thought I’d left behind me. She showed me manifestation of the self does not mean loss of the self. And additionally how to heal previous versions of the current me to empower the future me. She also introduced me to the Enchantress; that powerful side of me which needed empowering in all it’s beauty, glory and magic!
Quan Yin – A Chinese deity, who comes in on the same levels as Christ. She is beautiful and powerful. She gave me attunements to the Goddess levels. Very much a gateway for me, but also a teacher, in a very gentle and non intrusive way. She is always there. Like Christ for me. Never asking for anything. Just here to love and help.
Lillith – By many traditions classed as a demon, but again I feel a much maligned female who embraced her power, in terms of the Enchantress. She helped me understand that we were created to be alluring. We were created to be beautiful. God made us this way. Why should we be ashamed that men take our beauty and twist into a fault? That we are to blame for them feeling weakened by and therefore subjective to us? Why should we let someone else’s feelings and opinions make us feel ashamed of something we were created to be? Why should we be dis-empowered by men, and sometimes other women, because we stir something in other people by just being?
Wadjet – you may notice an Egpytian theme here! She came in for protection and gave me the Eye of Horus, via odd story in Disneyland of all places. And in doing so brought me to Anubis and his fatherly love and protection. Aligning her sisterly love with me, she reminded me I was part of a larger family than I could ever imagine, one which transcends bloodlines and is based on the soul and sisterhood. She has helped me draw others to me by reaching out, in order to balance my independence and strength. She helped show me that it is ok to vulnerable, and led me to do that with those I could truly trust first.
Brigid – Again, someone who had been trying to get through to me for some time. Accepted by the Ancient Celts and Britains, and then the Christian Church later. For me she has helped me embrace the emotion (water) and the creation (fire=destruction and rebirth). And again another wishy washied Goddess and not allowed to reflect in her own strength. Able to tame dragons and legions of armies. Truly standing in her feminine power and showing that there is no fear.
Kali – Goddess of Karma, among other things, I worked with Kali in terms of getting to practical grips of letting go of my anger and speaking my mind from a space of balance after some deep healing. Although I feel I have been working with another aspect of her in Sekhmet for sometime, I needed this aspect of her specifically.
Lakshmi – she had been trying to get through to me for some time (again), I now know and has helped me embrace my softness while allowing me to understand it doesn’t dis-empower me. She is a loving Goddess with laughter in her heart and acceptance of our whole selves, not just the bits we like. She asks us to prod the bits we don’t like with a gentle stick to see how they empower us. She showed me that providing for my children does not mean abundance in money or objects; that I provide by Being. Through love, knowledge and laughter I am abundant and I provide.
Serqet – She has helped me understand my daughter. In all her power. And in all her many forms. And how a 2 and half year old struggles to contain all the lifetimes of experience (she stood with her knees just hitting the top of the house). She asked me to name every feminine position my daughter held in order to see her fully; Mother, Daughter, Sister, Friend, Ruler, Leader, Priestess, Teacher, Healer, Goddess (etc etc). In embracing my daughter, I am embracing my feminine lineage and healing it also; totally empowering all the women that have gone before us and will come after us.
Durga – ok, I wrote this as I had an inclination to do so for a couple of weeks and then another online chat with another sister, going through this same process. As I sat down to write, a friend (well my hubbies friend, but you know how these things work!) emailed me about a spider book he had bought. (If you know my husband, you’d get the joke.) But he, being the spiritually in-tune and balanced (masc & fem) individual he is, managed to lead me down a rabbit hole of Spider Goddesses. Leading to this wonderful Lady. She rides astride a Big Cat (sound familiar?) Who I think controls everything and feels like the core. I don’t know. I’m going to have to get to know her. Which will be fun.
And so I finish, as I started. At the beginning again 🙂
Love as always
Rachael x
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